As I embark on the final stages of my academic studies in Canada, a wave of conflicting emotions engulfs me. One part of me is filled with relief and contentment as I wrap up this significant chapter of my life, while the other part grieves the necessity of letting go. Memories of cherished friendships and vibrant communities flood my mind, leaving me both nostalgic and grateful.
Since 2018, my life in Canada has been an enriching and profound experience. I have had the privilege of being a firsthand witness to, and actively engaging in, Canada’s ongoing truth and reconciliation process in humble ways. I have devoted considerable time and effort in developing a research project on the interaction between the Indigenous peoples and Filipino Catholics. I am profoundly grateful for the unwavering support of the “village” that surrounded and uplifted me during my studies. Moreover, the opportunity to explore the wonders of Canada, particularly in Toronto, has been a gift and a blessing.
As I reflect on my time in Canada, I cannot help but long for a deeper connection with the RNDM sisters in Regina and Winnipeg. There is unfinished business that beckons me. Regrettably, I abruptly left Canada in the dead of winter, on that fateful night when my sister passed away last December 26. I departed without the chance to bid proper goodbyes, and I still carry the desire to do so and celebrate the completion of my studies.
Never in my wildest dreams did I anticipate finding a home in Canada that would be so distinct from the Philippines, yet it happened. I had the pleasure of encountering countless remarkable individuals who left an indelible mark on my journey. These fond memories will beckon me back to this place, where I not only discovered the essence of who I am but also experienced transformative growth.
With mixed emotions in my heart, I embark on the final stretch of my academic studies in Canada. I carry within me the cherished memories, enduring friendships, and the profound sense of belonging that this remarkable place has bestowed upon me.
Sr Patricia Lourdes “Petite” Lao, RNDM is a religious missionary of the Congregation of Our Lady of the Missions. She is currently a doctoral candidate of the Toronto School of Theology (Regis College) with a research interest in Indigenous-visible minority dialogue and the truth and reconciliation process.
As I read your post, the words of a 1967 Centennial song came swooshing through my head:
“Give us a place to stand
and a place to grow
And call this land, Ontario”
I am grateful for all Canada gave you, and all you gave to Canada.